Please forgive my dumbass

Jennifer,

Why do I say what I say and do what I do?
Did I say or do something wrong to you?
When we met, we started out as friends;
I feel scared that I'm bringing that to an end.
I promised myself that I'd never do it again;
Maybe this is why I can't keep friends.
Whenever I meet a girl, I always do this shit;
I fucking can't stand myself for doing it.
No mater where I go or what I say;
Nothing good seems to come my way.
I have no reason for being here
But I try to drown my pain with a deadly beer.
They say people come and go;
Forever lonely I will be, this I know.
Every girl I meet always has a guy
And at that point I say to myself, "I give up. I'm not going to try.
Happiness and love are meaningless words to me;
People keep telling me that'll all change, we shall see.


I'm sprry for my behavior since Thursday night after we came to your house. I know I'm thinking too much into things and like I said to you that night, I need to quit. Last night at Tarheels I couldn't take thursday night off my mind, no matter how hard I tried. Like I told you in the text i sent you, I literally broke down and cried due to the fact that I felt I fucked it up. Friends we can still be it's just that I have to get that into my thick ass head. I can work on it, I promise. It might be like taking off a turtleneck sweater; It might take a good minute but I'll get it eventually.

Joe